yeah.
i fell into total love with hamsters
and now i can't pull myself out of it.
my family is getting sick of my sweetiepies.
sigh.
my top seven list of I WANTS.
guys, hamsters, everything.

1. PHILIPP LAHM♥♥♥♥♥.
2. NANI♥♥♥♥.
3. those gloriously gorgeous 4-inches from hush puppies♥. even though they'll murder my feet.
4. FLUORESCENT YELLOW AND BRIGHT RED AND BLACK NAIL POLISH. i don't care if it looks weird :D
5. a Nokia touchscreen phone (like dough's or lin dee's. dunno.)
6. a season pass to Old Trafford♥♥♥
7. ROBO♥. CHOCO WINTER WHITE♥. BLACK DOMINANT SPOT♥.

pics of them now.
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i just burned down one more bridge connecting me to anyone.

yeah it is.
i hope she hasn't forgotten me.
we used to be super close,
we were almost superglued.
i miss her.
i still remember the secrets i told her and what she told me.
i wonder if she still remembers?

i fool everyone.

yeah i guess i'm like that.
i hide behind all that glossy veneer in class.
smiling. laughing.
but inside, i'm breaking apart into tiny little pieces.
some days i just feel like ending everything.
but then i carry on with life as per normal.
wash my hamsters' houses.
study for common tests
do devotions
but then i just feel so empty and stressed.
sometimes i just don't know what's happening anymore.
like for homework.
i feel like screaming.
i don't know anymore.
they probably hate me deep down in their hearts
but they still say hi and bye to me.
i never fall apart in front of my parents,
so i keep it out in the open
by using my blog.
at least at home and in geebee,
i feel loved and wanted.
i♥you dough and isabel!
i think you're my only true friends.
but then again i'm not sure ):
GOD! save me please.