my shallow heart's the only thing that's beating

it's so easy to just end it all.
the pain, the lies.
the loneliness.
the hurt when you know someone's talking bad about you and you're right next to her.
the feeling that you're stupid.
the stress.
the regret when you realise that you could have changed things if you'd figured it out earlier.
the feeling when you know that you could have prevented that precious, precious hamster from dying.
you can just reach for that knife lying on the kitchen counter.
you can just take the lift to the top floor of your apartment block and climb over the railing.
you can just walk to the edge of the breakwater on a beach and stare into the murky depths of the ocean.
you can just go to the MRT platform and look down at those metal tracks and step off when the train's pulling in.
it would be so easy,
but i wouldn't dare.
i have to stay for my hamsters.
once they're gone, i might go too.
when you're gone - avril lavigne&hearts